Suspended along my body are bones, relics I carry myself, symbolizing the gradual fusion of my being with the divine, the body becoming both offering and memory. From the legs downward, metamorphosis occurs: my limbs are no longer flesh but wood, like those of a doll or puppet, barely supporting me on the ground. A metal rod at the abdomen stabilizes the body, evoking the need to shed the corporeal shell in the union of spirit with God. The portrait reveals this inner transmutation almost before our eyes.
At my feet rests a book, a symbol of knowledge and the transmission of truth. Having been passionate about reading all my life, it reassures me to see this foundational object as the intellectual and spiritual base of the composition.
The frame is richly adorned with gilded moldings, mirror fragments, and mosaics, creating a precious yet fragmented setting in which light multiplies. Numerous devotional objects — medals, crucifixes — are visible. In the lower section, Nall composes a fleur-de-lys to affirm my Québécois origin, alongside a maple leaf, signifying my broader Canadian identity. These earthly symbols dialogue with the spiritual elevation permeating the work.
This portrait is not only a testament to Nall’s gratitude for our years of collaboration — for which I remain profoundly thankful — but also evokes my inner evolution during those years, particularly spiritually. Nall was deeply immersed in spirituality, earnestly seeking to live by precepts he continually refined. Born in a Protestant Alabama family, he nevertheless evolved, embracing spiritualities from India, whose symbolic richness inspired him profoundly.
Nall believed in reincarnation, and his works testify eloquently to this principle: matter metamorphoses, bones regenerate, life continues in new forms. Nothing is lost; all transforms and is reborn. His bedside table was always filled with spiritual writings, with Sai Baba occupying a central place. Nall encouraged me to read these works, fostering a more luminous, confident view of our connection to the sacred. He was attentive to the ego’s role and often warned me against its excesses.
Through all these years, Nall guided me in the gradual transformation of my own ego — a slow, demanding journey that he himself had long pursued. Step by step, he led me toward deeper inner freedom. I admired how this path allowed him to experience lasting peace, open his heart further, and refine his perception of the unity connecting him to the divine and all creation. My portrait, Saint Jeaps, resonates with this philosophy: inner transformation, transcendence of the ego, and embrace of the sacred within human experience.
Ultimately, Nall had but one essential desire: to let love become the guiding force of his life. This he taught me through both words and example. His work remains the truest, most accomplished expression of this principle.
Jean-Pierre Garand "Jeaps"